I didn't know if it would work, but...

I discovered that setting aside time for worry, sadness, and other emotions really does work!

I'd always heard people say to set aside time for worries, but I thought it was just silly psych talk. However, I allowed myself to cry as much as I needed. I worried about everything pertaining to the labor and delivery, and I felt better as the day wore on.

This morning I woke up feeling refreshed, if a bit dehydrated because I only woke up once to get a drink of water, and ready to face the world again. I am, at present, sitting in the art studio in front of my pregnancy momento, ready to finish it up.

I woke up with Kevin, as usual, but made us some eggs and toast (it always worries me that he skips breakfast, so I'm trying to be sure he eats a little something), kissed him as he left for work, then gave my face a nice salt and honey scrub. All the stress is making me break out and a salt and honey scrub always helps, plus it is invigorating.

Now, I'm ready to get a few things done that I enjoy. I will say, I'm not feeling the things I worried about yesterday with the possibility of being bi-polar and such. I still may talk to someone about it one day, but for now I think I had a legitimate reason to he sad.

According to Eastern traditions, one sure fire way to become sad and worrisome is through expectations. I for sure had expectations and we cannot control the future. We cannot plan for the future without allowing flexibility and this is what I did. I set myself up for disappointment by being so rigid in my vision of what would happen during labor and delivery.

I'm still not sold on all of it. I'd be lying to myself if I said I was. I've just come to accept what is to come. I'm just trying to remain calm, open, and flexible so that I don't cause further stress for me, the baby, or K. This is all I can do. This is what I can control at this point and that's my focus.

So, here's to a lovely day in Cincinnati...cheers!
*raising my glass of water*

I'm going to make the most of it. Maybe I'll even get to more of my to-do list from yesterday...it's hard to do things on an agenda, when you have set aside a day for grieving. I just went with it. I think it was the best decision.

Just for fun, I attached pics of myself in the same swimsuit from the first trimester to today...lol! Such growth! The three big ones are from today...of course. The other is at 16 weeks.