1 week 1 day

Morning...

Things are going well. Kathryn slept in her bassinet last night rather than with us, which was nice because I got to sleep rather than worrying about her being next to me. SIDS is a terrifying thought and I'm not risking it. She's safer in her bassinet and we get lots of snuggled time during the day and while nursing.

I'm doing much better. I don't know what I mentioned in previous posts, but on Saturday I was in a lot of pain suddenly. I looked at my perineum in the mirror and much to my horror, it looked like the stitches were out, the tear was open, and there was white stuff on it!!! I started crying and basically cried all day, off and on.

If I wasn't crying about that, I was crying over Kathryn's umbilical cord, which had been rubbed by her diaper, was bleeding a little, falling off and smelling strange. I had my son drove me to Kroger to get disposables, because I was scared the cloth was keeping it wet.

Well, all that worry was alleviated the next day when it fell off! It doesn't smell at all and we are back in cloth...thank goodness, because the pampers caused her bottom to get red and they really smell when she wet them. Ugh.

I'm also feeling much better and feel myself getting better each day. I only have a 1st degree tear, so stitches aren't even necessary, and the sitz baths have really helped. I'm thinking ill be off the Morton this week sometime. I've got my legs back, and my belly, while soft, is coming back.

A pic is posted of my belly at 6 days PP. Sorry if I've already posted it. Sleep deprivation is getting to me. LOL.

Also a pic of Kathryn in her car seat after her first doc visit. She is a healthy baby girl!!!

Later in the day....

Today's challenge:

1. She has cried pretty much all day. :(
2. Trying to use the bathroom without her screaming her little head off. (Finally did about 5 minutes ago...it is hard to concentrate and relax for the early BM with a screaming baby in the other room)
3. Finding time to take a sitz bath...because of the successful BM. Not sure how to pull this off, because I need 20 minutes. However, I'll settle for 5 minutes. Anything to keep me from feeling like I did Saturday.
4. Eating and drinking enough water. I'm constantly hungry and thirsty...ugh. It's hard when just getting around is hard and having to make food is for sure hard.
5. Looking in the mirror. Gosh, I looks bad, but because I've been without makeup for so long, my skin looks better. :) I am for sure too old to be the pretty, tired "new" mommy. I just look like a train wreck.

Still, when I look at her, I am amazed...so in love with her. She's an angel and she makes it all worth it.