Bi-polar disorder?

I'm beginning to wonder if I could possibly be bi-polar.

I've thought this over the years, but my situation never seems so severe that it interrupts my life too bad. However, when I look back at my journals, I do see a definite pattern. I'm not saying like clockwork pattern, but a definite roller coaster and I have described my emotions as a roller coaster throughout my life.

I took two quizzes online, just out of curiosity and both said that based on my answers, I show symptoms of possibly having bi-polar disorder. One suggested I may have hypomania tendencies. I'd never heard of this before today.

One one quiz, I scored a 48, with a result of "moderate to severe bi-polar symptoms"

My thought is this...no matter what I do in my life, I always end up feeling down and depressed and then feeling insanely confident and active. I don't think about mood disorders too much because the situation passes and I get through. My life isn't terribly upset or changed by it.

That said...I have missed a lot of work in the past due to the down times. I've lost sleep and stopped eating due to the high, "happy" times. The depression I'm feeling over the induction has made me really start wondering. I mean...I understand being disappointed over it, but depressed? Really? Isn't that a little extreme?

Maybe it is.
Maybe it isn't.
I don't know.

All I know is how I feel.

What it comes down to is this: I really love my life. I love my husband. I love my kids. I love where I live. I really, really want this to last, unlike things in my past. I want the forever marriage. I want the family unit that stays a unit. I don't want to allow depression, or my need to "run away from everything" to affect the life I have now.

I am in the state where I am backing away from others. I don't even want to leave the house, to be honest. I feel bad for that, but it is what it is. I don't know what to do about it. All I know is in the past my patterns have exhausted others. I'm so scared that they will exhaust K. :-( It truly worries me. At least right now, in this state of mind.

I want to emphasize that while I do absolutely have noticeable, fairly major fluctuations in my mood, I am not the typical bi-polar person I've come to think about.

Things I have noticed about myself over the years: 

High phase: 
1. Overly talkative: this is probably my most common symptom during this phase
2. Laughs easily
3. VERY active: my most recent episode had me climbing a ladder while 8 months pregnant to finish painting the house.
4. Sudden bouts of creativity: I recently painted the boys' two walls, made a quilt, mobile, burp cloths, wetbag, decoupaged a table, all in the last 2-3 months.
5. Very social
6. Feels the need to go, go, go...preferably somewhere new or somewhere fun
7. High interest in sex
8. Extremely confident and outspoken

Low Phase: 
1. Very quiet...I can go all day and not say a word
2. Cry easily and unexpectedly
3. Lethargic, sleep a lot, don't want to leave the house
4. I lose interest in my creative projects...right now, my wedding throw and decoupage belly project sit in the studio unfinished and I can't bring myself to work on them, even though I do want to work on them.
5. Non-social. Feel the need to hide away, find others to be pushy and over-bearing and I find myself to be very insecure.
6. Interest in sex lessens and sometimes I even feel somewhat guilty about my sexual thoughts
7. Insecure with myself. I'll suddenly feel too fat, I'll criticize myself (skin, ability, thoughts, etc.)
8. Stay home, want to go see friends/family, but afraid to be a burden to others

I'm not going to worry about it for now. I'm pregnant and my focus is elsewhere. Right now I'm just happy to have taken the time to think about it openly. I know blogging may seem like a waste of time, but for someone who doesn't feel comfortable talking to others and opening up to others, this blog is helpful to me.

Maybe one day I'll find the strength to talk to a professional about this.
I wonder if this could be the underlying cause of the ED I had for so long?