Peace

K is in the kitchen making us a breakfast of eggs over easy, hashbrowns, and goetta (a Cincinnati specialty) with toast.

I'm sitting on the couch with my feet up. What a great Sunday. :-) It's supposed to rain and storm today and I welcome it. The land here is parched.

Yesterday we ended up not going to the pool party. Instead, we had a wonderful Italian dinner at Ferrari's. Oh my gosh, it was delish. K had a glass of Pinot Noir and offered me a sip, but I declined. I've decided I will have a small glass of wine the last week of my pregnancy to help me and my body relax a little.

Then again, who knows. Maybe I won't then either. Lol. So funny that a year ago I couldn't go a day without drinking and now I really don't care about it at all. It doesn't sound as good to me as water and juices. Plus, the effect of water and juices on my skin is amazing! Alcohol really had me dehydrated.

Thankfully I really cut back on my drinking when I met K. I think about that a lot...the difference I'm me during my previous marriage versus the me of the last year. I found myself again and I don't have to apologize for any part of who I am. That's very liberating and calming.

Pregnancy is a great time to search one's soul and spirit. To discover what's important and to weed out what isn't. I did this when I was pregnant with my boys too and found it very satisfying and I believe I was a better mother for it. For this little inexorably I am doing the same. The major difference is I'm older now and I believe the changes I'm making now will have a much more lasting effect I'm me than when I was 19 & 20. Now I know who I am. I feel more secure I'm that and therefore more secure in my decisions. It's a good thing.

I feel very peaceful today.