Layaway Angels

Some wonderfully thoughtful and generous people have paid off layaways in excess of $100,000 this holiday season. I think this is wonderful and solidified my idea that there is still goodness in this world, despite the media focus on the negative.

If I had the money, I'd do the same thing. I wish I had the money to simply make the tie blankets I used to make for the women's shelter. I love helping others and I've not been able to for two years now. It's okay though, I will again.

So my husband insisted on giving me my Christmas gift last night despite my pleas to wait until Christmas morning. He cannot keep a secret. Lol. He bought four tickets to see Marilyn Manson at Bogarts!! I'm so excited. For one, I've never seen Manson in concert and have always wanted to and also because I get to go to a kickass concert with my boys! It's a family affair. Yay!

I'm soooooo incredibly nervous to leave the baby that long though, not going to lie. C said she cried through 1/2 a movie when we went to the party. It really must not have been that bad or surely to goodness L would have contacted us.  Still, this will be longer. We were only gone for like 3 hours for the party. The doors open at 7:00...who knows how long we'll be there. If there are opening bands though, we don't HAVE to be there that early. Maybe we could skip the first one..

Or maybe I'll relax a bit and just enjoy myself for the entire show. I think I deserve it and L is patient and the baby will be fine without me for a few hours.

Babies change life as you know it. Completely. You can never do anything again without considering the children...or worrying about the children. Life as you know it is over. Who needs an astroid? Lol. Except instead of destruction, you get a sweet little thing...your heart walking outside your body. In my case, three large parts of my heart walking outside my body.

Motherhood is a crazy ass ride.
It's scary as can be.
It's exciting.
It's heart-wrenching.
It's angst-ridden at times.
It's hilarious.
It's fulfilling.
It's super fun.
It's lifelong.
It's frustrating.
It's a precious relationship.

Last night, Little Miss didn't sleep well at all. The sound machine did a better job of making me sleepy than her. I think she had gas. One time, she farted and it was so loud it startled her and woke her up! Ha! I was still awake from feeding her when it happened. So funny.

She's asleep on my chest now. I'm letting her sleep...poor thing. I know she must be exhausted.

Last night I somehow managed to squeeze in a dream....I have no idea how, but I did. I dreamed I was getting a break from the baby. She was apparently fussing and someone else took her. I went outside to the backyard to get fresh air. I remember walking carefully because the yard was muddy from a rain. I saw several hummingbirds flying low above me. I stooped down and three of them landed on my head and the rest landed at my feet. They seemed tired. I helped the ones on the ground to fly and I had to shake my hair a bit to get the three on my head to fly. I wonder what the meaning of that dream would be.

I wonder if the hummingbird is my energy animal! So cool, if so. If I weren't on my phone, I'd look up the significance of the hummingbird and include a link or two.

Today my boys are with us. I'm so very glad. They are exhausted from working so much. I worry about them. I had to sit them down and talk to them about how school is the #1 priority, not a side job. Tristan is sick, he said last night, so I need to nurse him back to health over the next few days. I'm hoping some rest and not being in the stripping room (for tobacco) will help.

Gosh I love those boys. They are such good young men..I can't believe C is going to be an "adult" in less than 4 months. It's insane. They are growing up so fast...having children makes life speed by. Before you know it, it's gone.

I hope I have given them a good childhood. I definitely tried my best to do so. We had our fair share of rough times. There was a spanking incident that I hate thinking about to this day...but we have had a LOT of really good times. They have been a joy in my life, for sure. They are what I am most proud of in my life...all of my children are. They are the best of me.

Today's agenda is flexible. I'm going to bake the apple pie and I want to make some chocolate-dipped pretzels and maybe some Cheerios bars. Hopefully the boys will want to help. It's always more fun with their help.

Update:
Pie? Check.
Pretzels? Check.
Sweet potato biscuits? Check.

I'm ready for the next few days. :-)