New perspective today

With the dawn comes better emotions. I awoke with a headache, but feeling immensely better than yesterday. Maybe a good cry out was just what I needed. Also, I got a few things done yesterday that helped me feel more accomplished and less like a literal milk machine.

I've learned that sometimes she will have to cry for a few minutes while I do chores. I was able to clean the bathroom while she sat in her seat...she didn't cry for that. Then, I made dinner and she did cry while I added the ingredients to the crockpot, but it wasn't for long. I already posted about the TJMaxx experience. I can chalk that one up to a poopy diaper. I'd cry too.

She slept from midnight to 5:00, then again until 8:30. She's a wonderful sleeper. She has been very happy this morning and I'm glad because her daddy usually sees her when she's grumpy at night. I'm glad he got to hold a smiling, cooing baby this morning. I don't think about the fact that he doesn't get to experience that much and how it must feel to so often see her and hold her when she's screaming.

Right now she is nursing without her diaper because she has some irritation starting. I'm hoping air will help it. It's not as bad as it was with Pampers, but it is there and I want to keep it from getting worse.

My boys are coming for the weekend and this morning I feel excited. Even if we don't do anything, it is great to see them and hug them! I miss them like crazy. They are such wonderful boys and they make me so proud. I love them dearly. C has talked about moving up here with us next year and I really hope he does. I'd love that. There is more opportunity for employment here than where they are now. There is a school he's interested in Troy as well, so he will move to Ohio for sure If he decides to attend there.

I'd love to have both of them with me. It was tough to say yes when they asked to live with their dad. I finally gave in when we agreed on a 6 month trial. It went well, so I agreed to let them continue. They are doing well in school and seem happy for the most part. T is definitely happy. C likes his school and being with his dad, but can't stand his dad's girlfriend. He only tolerates her and she is part of the reason he wants to move here next year. I tell him he still needs to be respectful toward her. He chose to live there and knew her before he did, so she's part of the package. At least for now...their dad has had a few girlfriends. She's expecting though, so I'm sure she'll be around for a while.

Anyway,  approaching this day with a positive attitude, come what may.

I want to upload pics, but I haven't gotten my replacement phone (dropped mine in toilet), and I'm using K's. It requires an app and I don't want to download anything to K's phone. I'll have to add a photo bomb later. I have a lot of cute ones of her!

So, cheers to a nice day.