Weight loss...when it doesn't happen

I hate the woman in the magazine pic below.
I'm so incredibly jealous of her weight loss.

:-(

I really hate my body right now and feel so bad about myself. I don't understand why my "tire" isn't going away.

I'm dressed in my F&F clothes today, because my jeans feel so uncomfortable and I had a lot of housework to do.

Ugh. I wish I could love myself as I am. Pics of me below, as always, ignore the old filmy mirror. It's clean, but always filmy.

Today I've eaten:

1. Whole wheat toast with peanut butter and honey, Cutie. Water.

2. Whole grain pasta with fresh mushroom marinara and parmesan cheese. 1 non-alcoholic beer.

3. Sweet potato, handful of walnuts, 5 cherry tomatoes, whole wheat toast with marmelade, wedge of cheese. Water.

Bad part? My stomach is growling and I literally just finished #3. It's still in front if me...

*sigh*

I could literally cry, but I won't, because it wouldn't do a bit of good anyway.

Boo. Maybe this magazine (American Baby) will have a workout I can try.