Yesterday my husband left for "man camp" with a bunch of his friends. Man Camp is an annual trip to Red River Gorge, where they "camp" in a large, fully-equipped cabin for the weekend. Anyway, before leaving he gave me a wad of cash and said, "Do something for me. Go get yourself something. Don't spend it on the baby. Spend it on yourself. You deserve it."
The gesture made me shed a couple of tears, not going to lie. To be appreciated like that means so much, especially considering how lonely and isolated I sometimes feel these days.
Motherhood is a wonderful, glorious thing. I love being a mother. I love my children so much. They truly are my sunshine.
Being a mother can be very lonely though. It's especially hard when you don't have a lot of close mom friends. I went through this when I had my sons, because I was young and my friends were all heading off to college, while I spent my time rocking the babies and singing lullabies. While they were drinking in bars and dancing in clubs, or going to concerts, I was dancing around my living room with a baby on each hip.
Then, when I was older and my kids were old enough for me to start living my life, my friends were having children.
Again, I was isolated.
Now, my friends have older kids and I have a baby again.
I guess it's a good thing I'm, by nature, more like a cocooned caterpillar than a social butterfly.
Anyway, today I did a bit of shopping with the money he gave me. I bought a new pair of jeans, a cute top, a PRETTY nursing bra (geez, I was so sick of wearing plain Jane ones, even if they are way comfy), and a pair of glasses that are very similar (but way cheaper) than a pair of Ralph Lauren's I lost about a year ago.
I also bought a new toy for the baby. I couldn't resist. I am more interested in my kids than myself. To be honest, I could spend the entire day shopping for any of the three of them, whereas I want to quit after an hour when it's for me.
I love fashion though. I can peruse pictures on Instagram without a problem. I love the shoe images! I just hate shopping for myself anymore. I can seldom find what I've visualized in my head anyway.
I did shop though and I did enjoy it, and I like what I got. I may shop more tomorrow, as I only spent about half of what he gave me. Then again, maybe I'll save it.
Kathryn is trying to grab my mouth as I type. lol
I love this kid. I think she is beginning to favor me a bit more these days.
Motherhood is a wonderful, glorious thing. I love being a mother. I love my children so much. They truly are my sunshine.
Being a mother can be very lonely though. It's especially hard when you don't have a lot of close mom friends. I went through this when I had my sons, because I was young and my friends were all heading off to college, while I spent my time rocking the babies and singing lullabies. While they were drinking in bars and dancing in clubs, or going to concerts, I was dancing around my living room with a baby on each hip.
Then, when I was older and my kids were old enough for me to start living my life, my friends were having children.
Again, I was isolated.
Now, my friends have older kids and I have a baby again.
I guess it's a good thing I'm, by nature, more like a cocooned caterpillar than a social butterfly.
Anyway, today I did a bit of shopping with the money he gave me. I bought a new pair of jeans, a cute top, a PRETTY nursing bra (geez, I was so sick of wearing plain Jane ones, even if they are way comfy), and a pair of glasses that are very similar (but way cheaper) than a pair of Ralph Lauren's I lost about a year ago.
I also bought a new toy for the baby. I couldn't resist. I am more interested in my kids than myself. To be honest, I could spend the entire day shopping for any of the three of them, whereas I want to quit after an hour when it's for me.
I love fashion though. I can peruse pictures on Instagram without a problem. I love the shoe images! I just hate shopping for myself anymore. I can seldom find what I've visualized in my head anyway.
I did shop though and I did enjoy it, and I like what I got. I may shop more tomorrow, as I only spent about half of what he gave me. Then again, maybe I'll save it.
Kathryn is trying to grab my mouth as I type. lol
I love this kid. I think she is beginning to favor me a bit more these days.
Some photos, just for fun.
K and I pre-baby, Covington, Ky.
I look chubby, but I still like this one. I think Kathryn was only a few weeks old here.
Christmas and nursing my girl
4 months prego
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