Don't have to be perfect!

<p>I've come to the conclusion that none of it really matters. I've put my energy into all the wrong things. </p>
<p>When my boys were little, I was all about appearances. I remember that part of my 5 year plan was to have my kids in all brand name clothes. To me, at that time, that was indicative of good parenting. </p>
<p>During Kat's infancy, I was all about taking care of the earth...green parenting all the way. I still am this way but, but I don't see the point in advertising it or wearing it like a badge of honor. I guess I was excited about it. I liked the idea of parenting in a conscious way. </p>
<p>That said, I think I've missed the point. </p>
<p>I think the point is not to live like a crazed fringe person, but to simply do your best and move on. </p>
<p>I'm no longer going to put it upon myself to he perfect at what I do. It doesn't matter!!! </p>
<p>No one cares and to be honest, I dont care if I'm doing anything perfectly either. Whatever! </p>
<p>The things I want to do....I want to do well, but I want to lead a balanced life. That's what<br>
this whole blog is about. Finding balance between the things I value, without losing myself in any of them. </p>
<p>It is HARD for me, because I pour myself into all I do. </p>
<p>The Buddha was born into opulence and sought enlightenment through restriction, only to discover that enlightenment could not be attained that way. He declared. If you thirst, drink. If you hunger, eat. </p>
<p>Balance. <br>
This is the only way. </p>
<p>I love my family. <br>
I love mother earth. <br>
I love my work. <br>
I love my creativity. </p>
<p>All of these things are important parts of me and all must have a place in my life. None is more important than the other, because I am made up of all and the absence of one makes me unbalanced and unhappy. </p>
<p>Ok. So now I know this....<br>
Now what? <br>
Lol! </p>
<p>I've started a new fun project that I'm REALLY enjoying. It's just for fun, just for me and I'm excited about it. </p>
<p>I'm cloth diapering part-time, so as not to get frustrated with the cons of cloth, but also to not be sad about the terrible cons of disposables. </p>
<p>I'm vegetarian, not vegan, because my skin was not loving the vegan diet at all. I think I had a zinc deficiency, because I wasn't healing well, & I has a rash. I also bruised a LOT, which led me to believe I may have also had an iron deficiency. Also....I love eggs, so why deprive myself of them. I just try to shop consciously.

On vacation, I consumed a lot of seafood, which made me a bad vegetarian, but oh well. The benefit? My nails grew like crazy! So, I may add fish to my diet on occasion. I don't have to be a perfect vegetarian. I can do whatever the hell I want. I'll do what is best for me.

So that's all this post is about. My light bulb moment. I'm not perfect. I never will be. I don't have to be perfect, nor do I want to be.