Babble.

I feel pretty lost here in Cincy, despite my trying to embrace it as home. Like now...I want to do something. Take a walk someplace, or something,  but I don't feel like just walking around our little neighborhood and I hate that I have to drive somewhere else to walk. Everything here requires driving and searching for a place to park. It is so annoying.

I long for a walkable city.

It's funny how lost I feel here and how at home I felt in Savannah. I thought I felt at home in NOLA, but the feeling I had in Savannah surpasses that for sure. I can't wait to go back.

I has inspired me. I feel motivated to go back to school so I can get a job I'll love, so we can live there and K doesn't have to stress about building clientele immediately.

In other things....

I'm tired of only having acquaintances. That's what I have here. It is a lonely existence, to be honest. I was raised to not bother people, so it is super uncomfortable for me to invite people over or to ask to stop by their house, or to ask if they want to do something. It's stupid, I know....and it makes it very hard for me to build and maintain friendships.

This is one thing I'm honestly not sure how to get past. It has me stumped, for sure.

I must get past it though, because I absolutely do not want my daughter to ever feel this way...like she's not good enough, like she's a bother, or like she has nothing of interest to offer others.

Anyway...I have some things to do here at the house and baby is asleep, so I better take advantage of the 15 minutes or so this nap will likely afford me.