10-Day No Wine Challenge

It's crazy how when you start getting healthier, you are far more aware of things that make you feel amazing and things that make you feel downright terrible.

Last night I had one too many glasses of wine. It was my way of winding down after a long, hard day in the garden, tearing out ivy (my entire backyard is covered in it), cutting down trees, and resetting bricks.

I also stayed up until 1:30 am and had trouble falling asleep, so I was probably awake until 2am. The good thing from all of it is I DID wake up at 6am and I did workout, even though my workout was not the most stellar ever.

My shoulders just couldn't take it. I hardly used my 10 lb weights at all and even had to go without them for some moves. I did only half of my workout. I am chalking a lot of this up to overwork, because of yesterday's gardening, but much of it is because of wine. No doubt.

Wine is my nemesis.
I love it.
Too damn much and getting healthier has really made my relationship with it rocky.
I mean...what the hell, I'm writing a blog post about wine!

I don't want to stop completely, but part of me thinks I should. It just isn't meshing with my healthier lifestyle. It COULD, if I was better able to control my consumption, but one glass makes me want another and the next thing you know, I have my husband and me finishing off a bottle. This is how it always is when we get it.

Any other drink, I'm okay with. I can have A BEER, or A MARGARITA....but wine and I like each other a lot.

So, I'm going to try to cut it again and this time for 10 days. Maybe I can get myself to a point where I just won't want it anymore or I'll just have it once in a while with a dinner at a nice restaurant. I'm seriously over feeling like I do now.

Headache.
Slightly shaky. (although that could be in part due to the workout. lol)
Weak.
Tired.
Worthless

I do.
I feel worthless when I wake up like this. I also woke up thinking...my daughter deserves better than this too. Of course she was asleep last night while we had wine, but she'll be with me today and I'm starting it off rather poorly. The headache alone makes it harder to deal with a 2 year old.

I am glad I got up early though and I'll take Tylenol for my head.

You know, really the way I drink wine isn't much worse (if at all) than other people I know who drink it. It COULD fit in with my healthy lifestyle. It's not like I drink a bottle a night or that I'm terrible hungover right now. It's just that I'm so much more conscious of the effects that even the slightest feeling of being "off" is apparent.

For me personally, it just isn't fitting with my goals. It is like when you go hiking and realize you've packed way too much crap, you know? I need to eliminate some of the excessive crap from my life right now. If I don't do my best, I'm never going to learn how far I can go, or what I'm capable of. I think I deserve the opportunity to find that out.