Inherent Goodness?

I've come to the conclusion that I'd rather be blithely unaware of how horrible most people really are, than to know the truth.

Does this make me naive and stupid? Perhaps...but it also helps the world seem more beautiful & kind and that's the world I want to live in and raise my daughter in.

I was raised to mistrust, question, infer, etc. I was made to believe that most people are out to harm others, are liars, cheats, sickos of varying degrees, etc. Some of this I learned firsthand. Some I was told was true by my mother.

I have, in the last ten or so years, tried to fight against that and for a long time I was happily convinced that I WAS RIGHT: that most people are honest and the world IS exactly as it seems.

However, I am learning, much to my chagrin, that perhaps my mother was right after all. Perhaps I, as a teen, was right. This world is not so good. The people in it are lost liars, cheats, and sickos of varying degrees...and I am one of them as well.

Yet I cannot live with this rolling about in my head. I just can't.  Whats the point of life if not to find the good and cherish it?

So, while I KNOW the truth, I'm going to, instead, live in DENIAL and PRETEND that most people are inherently good. This is my life...I guess I can live as I please & believe whatever makes me happy.

Another thing I have learned...my intuition is spot-fucking-on about people, even though I constantly doubt it and assume it is just my distrustful nature getting in the way...it is spot-on and I need to listen to it, trust it, and move on.