Sexy after babies

It's hard to be sexy after children, no matter your post-baby weight or shape.

I'm below my pre-prego weight and my body is basically the same shape,  but I don't feel very sexy most days. More times than not, I just feel tired.

My husband thinks I'm sexy. He loves on me all the time.

I've come to the realization that it has to do with my mentality and my opinion of myself; no one else's. It's a tough pill to swallow.

I've always had a low opinion of myself when it comes to my appearance. I'm very insecure. This has always prompted me to do more, be more, strive to succeed, and put all my coins in my bucket of ability...but now I have none of that. I have my BA, of course, but I'm not doing anything with it. This is my choice and I'm happy with the choice. However, it is bringing to light insecurities I've long hidden from myself through my work.

It doesn't help that K has many exes in our circle. I'm a tough chick. I really am, but it is hard sometimes. I try not to let it bother me and most of the time it doesn't, but sometimes it does.

What's worse.....most of them are in their twenties. Ugh. That's hard. My days of competing with twenty-somethings are long gone.

*deep breath*

Now carry on.

I know this is a silly entry. My husband is crazy about me. A blind person could see that.

I just wish I could see myself as I really am. All I see are the flaws I have and that is as ridiculous as women who are conceited. No one is perfect and no one is entirely comprised of flaws.

That just isn't realistic.

Why am I so great at pointing out the good in others, but so horrible at seeing it in myself? I need someone to tell me my good points on occasion. Someone not my husband- who always does this- but I shrug it off as though it is him simply living up to his obligations as a husband. Lol

So, yea. It's hard to be sexy after babies....it's hard mostly, to FEEL sexy after babies. Will I get my groove back? Only time will tell, I suppose.

In the meantime, I put on some makeup, fixed my hair and painted my fingernails and toe nails. At least I feel less frumpy.

It's a start.