Searching for That THING

I'm always reflecting. Almost obsessively.
But this life moves so quickly that it is easy to get caught up in the tide and the next thing we know we've unintentionally washed upon a strange shore, unprepared, uninspired, and lost.

I've been there.

Nowadays, I make decisions and reflect, continue or retract, depending on my goals.

I've always got goals.
I've always got a purpose.

What I'm sort of lacking these days is fun. The thing is, what I used to consider fun, like hitting the bar or the clubs, just isn't fun to me anymore.

So I'm sort of floating along, doing things my husband enjoys (that I also enjoy, such as visiting antique stores & traveling)...and not really sure what makes me tick. Like, what is THAT THING that makes me...you know, like, "Yes! This is my thing!"

Sure, I do things I enjoy as well, like museums, fitness, exploring the city and cooking, but I still feel dissatisfied.

I want to do some new things. I'd like to take a class two. Something that makes me nervous or downright frightened. I'm ready to step out of my comfort zone. I need to.

I need to meet new people. People who don't just want to hang out in the bar. People who don't just want to sit around. Active people who like to DO THINGS.

I'm waiting until we move and are settled and then I'm on it. I'm tired of this stagnation.  Just like my fitness regimen,  need variety in my life, because I get bored very easily.

Here are a couple of ideas I have for classes:

1. Sewing
2. Cooking
3. Yoga
4. Something pertaining to the home...like laying tiles or finishing drywall or refinishing furniture
5. Suspension training
6. Writing, even just a club would be good
7. Painting or pottery
8. Acting (just for the hell of it)

I just want to do some things that will put me on edge a little bit. Things that will get me out of this comfort zone & make live exciting, or at the very least, more interesting.

Perhaps I will also make a few friends while I'm at it. I find that the 30s are a tough time to make friends. Most people already have their circles and are hesitant to allow new people in, and life gets in the way of friendships as well.

I'm also always concerned about "bothering" people. I was raised that "you shouldn't bother him/her." However, life has taught me that contacting someone doesn't mean I'm bothering him/her.

That's said, it's hard to get that out of my head sometimes. Anyone else ever feel this way?

It's all good.
Once we move and are settled and organized, I'll get out and do some things that interest me. It's going to be fun, even if I have to do them alone.