Boob Job?

I'm contemplating a boob job.

My poor breasts are just....sad. So sad, after gaining 30 pounds during my last pregnancy and then nursing for 23 months. Really, they more closely resemble cow udders than a woman's breasts.

I'm going to wait though. I'm going to give them a year to see if they come back. I've read that they can be a bit "deflated" after nursing, but bounce back. I also heard this from a friend, so I'm going to give my body time to recover. After all, it's only been 3 months since I stopped nursing.

I wonder what people will think if I do it? More than that, I wonder what I'll think if I do it? I've never really had an opinion on it. Certainly not a negative one. I think we have the right to make our own choices. I've always been about researching and educating oneself to make a decision, whatever that may be.

My mother had implants.
Lots of people I know have them, so it's not a big deal.

How does this factor into my clean eating and fit lifestyle? Does it even factor? This was brought up this morning by a friend and it has me thinking. Does it make me less of anything I believe in to get saline implants inserted into my body?

Like she said also....we wear makeup, we color our hair, etc. Are implants REALLY anything other than that? Sure, it's surgery. In all reality, I could die on the table.....stranger things have happened...all for an unnecessary procedure.

My breasts don't even fill my B cups anymore. I'm probably an A right now and I loathe padded bras. If you've ever tried to find pretty unpadded bras for smaller breasts, you know it's very hard to do. I like lace bras. I want to be able to wear pretty lace bras and have my breasts fill them nicely.

I do not want large breasts. I do not like large breasts. I find them unattractive, to be honest. I'd like a large B - small C cup size. Just enough to look nice. Enough to look like ME again.

Right now, with the muscle, even with my very lean build, I have a totally flat chest. Ugh. I hate it.

It reminds me of a scene in Erin Brokovich, where the woman asks, "If you have no breasts and no uterus, can you still call yourself a woman?"

Well, of course the answer is yes. There is more to being a woman than having breasts and a uterus.

But what about how I feel?
Why do I feel it is necessary to have a curvy chest to feel feminine? Is it how I FEEL or how I think others perceive me?

I really love how my body has changed since I started getting in shape again. I feel like myself again and it feels great...although i feel MUCH healthier, because I'm not restricting, but the boob situation has been one that has bothered me since I was a teenager.

Do I just continue through life feeling like I wish I had better, perkier boobs, or do I do something about it?

I've always been a person with the mindset of: if you don't like something, do something to change it or STFU.

So...this is where I am with this debate.
I'll give it a year.
If, in one year I don't feel like y boobs have made a comeback, I'm going to help them along.
I've already researched plastic surgery centers here in Cincinnati, so I'm good as far as that goes.

And no....If I do decide to have surgery, I won't be flaunting my fake breasts all over the internet.