Outpatient Surgery

Ryn has an outpatient surgery today for her vaginal adhesion. I'm a nervous wreck, because of the general anesthesia.

I know this could never be done without it, especially not at her age and level of activity. There is no way she would sit still, even if locally numbed. I'm glad she will be asleep and have no memory of this. But I'm scared of the anesthesia because K and I do not respond to such things so well.

I've already documented my experience with an epidural and when he had his wisdom teeth removed, he was very hard to awaken.

I'm not totally focused on the negative though. I'm thinking positively. This is a great hospital and this is a very minor procedure. The anesthesia is short and the recovery time is fast. The side effects are very low. Also, K and I can be with her when they give her the gas. While this freaks me out a bit, it also makes me feel better for her sake. I am so worried about her being scared and I hope that our presence will alleviate that.

I don't want her to be scared.

If I had my way, is just let nature take its course and let her estrogen levels during puberty open her up, but she has only a pin hole opening to urinate right now and I'm scared she'll get a UTI....those are terrible enough as an adult. I don't want her to go through that.

I'll be so happy when this is all over, we are home, and she is nestled in my arms, nursing, just as she is now. I love this little girl so much.

Note: Vaginal adhesions happen to about 20% of girls...why aren't parents alerted to this when their daughters are born? Not to worry them, but just for a heads up. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure, right?