Reflection.

In all honesty, I can't remember what I wrote about last on this blog. I've been keeping myself busy with quilt orders. It's not serious income, but I'm truly enjoying it and the process of creating quilts gives me ample time to contemplate a lot of things.

It's a valuable time for reflection for me and for that I'm grateful. It's amazing how time changes things.

For one, I'm able to sit down and quilt. Anyone who has been reading this blog from the beginning knows that such an idea was an impossibility when my daughter was a newborn.

She is able to entertain herself these days. Not for long periods of time (what 2-year old can/should?). She loves a few shows on Netflix and I allow her to watch them. Television didn't kill me and her screen time is limited, though I'm not obsessive about it.

She recognizes the letters E and O.
She knows pink, blue, yellow and white very well.
She is speaking so well these days and even making three word sentences.

It's awesome watching her become a little person with a very big personality!


We visited Savannah again and we are sure we want to move there. A friend of ours is buying the house and after that we are trying out Savannah for a year. We are excited and scared.


While quilting I've also had time to reevaluate my life. Not as far as my marriage goes, although I do reflect on that and I can honestly say it's a good reflection. :) But I mean MY life. Me...a separate entity from the rest of who I am. (I'm a woman...I'm complicated. I embrace it)

I have realized that contrary to my thoughts when I was younger, I DO want to have a career that is steeped in creativity. I feel most alive and most in touch with myself when creating (or writing....which is, creating something as well, I suppose). When I was younger, I thought I'd end up hating the art if I HAD to do it. I know this is untrue now. It's in me. I love it.

The question is...exactly what do I want to do?
I already have a Bachelor of Arts degree.

I'm interested in design...particularly interior design, but I've ALWAYS had and continue to have a love for architecture. I love old homes.

I saw a school that offers a degree in Historic Preservation and I was ecstatic when I saw it. However, it involves carpentry and masonry...and that intimidates me! Will I be able to do that? I LOVE working with my hands and I'd love something that challenges me and maybe even scares the living daylights out of me...

The school is in Savannah. I'd have to wait to start it. Also...the cost. I've already got a mountain of school debt. ALSO, it's an Associate degree and I already have a B.A. Is that even allowed? lol. I know it is. You can get any number of degrees, but is it the smart way?

I have no idea.
I have two degrees already.

The thing is, I kinda' WANT to do it. I'd like to try it. I could work on old homes in Savannah and any number of other historical areas. It could be cool as hell. I'd not be tied to a desk. I'd not be cooped up inside all the time. I'd not loathe going to work and that is key and has always been key since I had my daughter.

I refuse to leave her for a job I hate or one I even kinda like. No. Never again. I've done that. I missed a lot of my sons' childhoods to that (out of necessity, not choice) and I'll not do it again.


I lost a good friend this week. I'd known her since 7th grade. She was a beautiful, bright light in this world and she's gone now, after having battled a heart condition and Crohn's Disease. She died of an accidental overdose...

The news hit me quite hard. I was actually surprised by how hard it hit me. I cried, I was unable to focus...I kept replaying moments I'd spent with her...I had nightmares. It was strange. The strangest part is I'd not even seen her in person or heard her voice since 2008. I didn't even really KNOW her, but she always held a special place in my heart and always will. She "friended" me on Facebook just two weeks ago and now she is gone. I'm so thankful that we got back in touch. It filled me with so much happiness to have heard from her again. I wanted to go see her so badly and was planning to ask if we could meet up, but I never got a chance.

"Life is what happens while you're busy making plans." John Lennon

Her passing has gotten my back in touch with my old self...my old tough as nails self, but more refined. I'm nicer than I used to be. I'm more objective than I used to be, but I'm not to be trifled with. I'm a very strong woman and I like the way my future looks and I'm so very thankful that I have a wonderful man to stride side by side with.


Photos from our trip to Savannah. We are planning a return trip in February to scout places and for K to visit tattoo shops.