Focus.

This month my focus is simple: get out of my comfort zone.

My husband noticed a yoga studio literally down the street. I'm going. That's it, I'm going.

I'm also taking a creative class at Michael's. Why not. Maybe I'll meet some fun people.

I've got to start doing things that make me uncomfortable. Last night I facilitated a team call and that was cool. I was so nervous, but it was great. Luckily out team leader is laid back, (and though slightly hyper haha!) and she made me feel totally comfortable.

I want to continue with this. I'm so tired of being worried about the result. I came to the realization that I actually care what other people think of me. Like...what?! All these years I've been in denial. I realized the Dr. Marten wearing, shaved head punk girl even cared, although I claimed I didn't. I cared so much I out on an air of intimidation! I swear, this is such a shock to me. Last night I was beside myself with shock.

That said, it's quite liberating. I mean...now that I know, I have a starting point, right?

Then I started wondering what I'm afraid of. Why do I care? Because I don't want people to think I'm stupid. Now I KNOW I'm not stupid. I was awarded a scholarship to go to UK and I scored a 4.0. I've accomplished pretty much anything I've set out to do in my life (all in my comfort zone, of course lame). I have street smarts anything lbs well, so I know I'm not stupid. So where is this fear coming from?

I'm not placing blame here...I'm just recognizing an origin. It's from my mother. She is deeply concerned about people thinking she's stupid. She's talked about it as long as I can remember. It is HER fear, not mine.

So upon realizing this, I now know I can let it go. It's not even mine.

It's amazing how we can harbor the fears of others and not even realize it.

So, anyway...I'm going to try a few new things.  My goal this month is simply to get out of the boring CZ.

When was the last time you voluntarily did something that gave you butterflies?